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내 온라인 오빠 (MY ONLINE OPPA)

Sometimes, someone who is far away from us makes our heart flutter. We don't know exactly who that person is then the curiousity makes our mind wondering.

Have you ever met someone online that you think he is really the only one in your eyes? I met him!

It began since three years ago. It was exactly when I graduated from University and looked for a job. While I did that, I downloaded some applications to talk to strangers and made some good friends. I really enjoyed to play Hellotalk application. It is not only app to find some good friends but it is also app to help me to learn languages. Especially korean language. Yep, I really wish I could speak korean language that fluent.

I still vaguely remember. At that time, I was lying down and playing phone on the bed then I suddenly got a notification from someone in hellotalk. Hi! he said. Hello.. I replied back. He didn't talk casually for conversation and I could see that he wasn't that good in english. He asked me to teach him english and he paid me back by teaching korean. He was at Salon. He said he wanted to cut his hair and after that he would send me his newest photo . I was waiting him like a fool and he suddenly sent me a photo. "It remain the same. Which part of your hair was different? 너 바보 야."

During the days, we liked to talk everything through hellotalk and we never get bored of it. He was searching for a job and so did I. So we got much time to do thing together.
I remembered the way you called me. At that time, I said my name was Camelia. You called me in korean accent which was weird and cute. I did remember when I decided to call you oppa and we both laughed together.I also did remember when you spent your night by learning english and you needed my help to teach you.I sometimes made you jealous by telling that I closed to other men and you said I need to be careful of everything.You gave me some korean recipes to cook eventhough I never made one of you recipe.You liked to call me when you were cooking and showing your creation.You asked me to exchange some gifts but we never actually really did that.
He always makes me smile and laugh. As time goes by, we moved our conversation in kakaotalk. I didn't delete hellotalk but I started to use kakaotalk more to talk to him. We sometimes did a video call as well as voice call. He sometimes woke me up in the morning and we joked a lot and I started to like him more.

I literally didn't remember when he suddenly had a girlfriend and finally had a job at Samsung. Because of that, we  rarely talk like what we used to do before. He sometimes sent me a message "I miss you." Oppa.. I wish you were here. Until he finally broke up with his girlfriend, our thing continued again.
I like you
What do you like about me?
You are funny.... What do you think about me?
I like you but.. we are too far
Come here.
You come to Korea.
Will I be able to meet you?
Of course. I'll show you around.
You won't hide from me, will you?
haha.. you can count on me"
We fought because I was mad at him. I was hurted so I started to never text him anymore. I said to myself that I would erase him from my mind. But he suddenly text me a lot and my feeling that already close, slowly opened again. 

On Saturday, I charged my phone in the living room and my phone rang. I quickly checked my phone and it was him who called me. I took some time to answer and I pressed the answer button. 
"Camelia..
Yes oppa. What happened?
We start.
I'm sorry. What did you say?
We start."
I asked my sister. Do you have any ideas what he said? He said start. What does it mean? 
means he wants to date you.
*happy face*

We didn't get along pretty well so we decided to be friend. There was something different about him, but I just didn't know how to explain. I just knew it. 
One year later, I bought a new phone and I changed my kakaotalk to my new phone. How stupid I am knowing that my id changed. I was in a blue. I already deleted my hellotalk account and I only have his kakaotalk then everyhing changed. Arrgh.. I felt like I lost. Like really lost.

Now, I always wonder how you doin there. Do you miss me? Are you looking for me? 
ah .. I miss the old good times.
I wish I could find you in hellotalk again.

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